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Agony Of Being Me: Teen * New Adult * Coming of Age Romance Kindle Edition

by Victoria Valentine (Author), January Valentine (Author) Format: Kindle Edition

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Agony of Being Me is Part One of a Two Book Set. Finding You is Book Two
Anticipated Release date of Finding You is on or before June 30, 2016 and is available for Pre Order on Amazon..

An intense teen & young adult romantic drama intended for coming of age & other readers 16+
For some girls, life is a romance novel; for others, a horror story. Zoe Channing has it all: beauty, brains, talent. She owns the heart of high school hottie, Jesse Sinclair. She’s the star of the school play, with love at her fingertips, but just before her sixteenth birthday, tragedy strikes, hurling her on a turbulent course back from the hell that replaced her heaven.
Can a soul withstand so much torment? A mind such terror? A body such physical agony?

Jesse's life is all planned out. Graduate high school and head to art school in the city. His mother is gone, and his dad has just suffered a near fatal heart attack, leaving Jesse to fend for himself. Older brother, Jamie, could be Jesse's twin, but only in appearance. Jesse James as they're referred to couldn't anymore different on the inside. Where Jesse is responsible, Jamie is a fly by night woman abusing man whore. Jesse's senior year of high school brings about a dramatic and delightful change in the form of a small blonde girl with big blue eyes. Jesse's never felt this way before, but fate sends him into a tailspin, and he'll spend the next few years trying not to follow in his brother's footsteps. Sometimes life doesn't leave much choices. And the choices you make can be devastating.
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Zoe is like a sudden storm that charges the air, leaving it sweet and fresh. Plain and simple, Zoe is pure energy.—Jesse

And the moment is pure magic. I’m not Zoe. I’m someone like Claudette. I have no past. There’s just tonight. No party. No one else in the world.
Just Jesse and me. Me and Jesse. And I’m about to be kissed like a woman. Made love to like I’m something precious. —Zoe

The wheels in my head start spinning, I want to do so many things with her. To her. Kissing her within the next five minutes is exactly how I plan
on starting.—Jesse
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The bathroom door squeaks shut. Now I’ll have to walk into class like a loser, with everyone’s eyes on me, is the only thought plaguing my mind. I haven’t taken two steps when I feel the ominous presence behind me. Before I can spin to confront the danger, one massive hand comes around my waist, while the other slams over my mouth. My lips are crushed against my teeth. My head is jerked up, the involuntary movement almost snapping my neck. Bite! My mind screeches. Kick! Scream! But my mouth is sealed shut, so the only sound I can manage is a grunt. I can’t turn my head which is in a vice-like grip. I can’t move my arms, as they are suddenly pinned tightly to my sides. Oh God. What’s happening to me? Help me. Someone help me!
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Warning: Contains one sexual assault scene. As in real life, some language represents the character angst. Two book set.
Agony of Being Me is Part One of a two book set. Finding You is Part Two, the twisting, explosive conclusion.

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Realistic portrayal of human nature when faced with tragedy. I identified with the strong, well-developed characters and their life-altering issues and how they each handled the hurdles life threw at them from different perspectives. This is a well written book, with emotional depth, while being an easy read. Highly recommend. --M.M. West, MAT, New York

About the Author

Victoria (January) Valentine, is a New York writer and indie book publisher. She's been writing for for most of her life in one form or another: poetry, short stories, song lyrics, children's books, published as Victoria; adult novels, thrillers and horror are written as January Valentine & Lana Lundon (erotica).Agony of Being Me is her sixth novel. Her favorite genres to read and write are horror, thrillers, and contemporary romance. Besides being inspired by family, she owes a shout out to Robert C. Wilson, author of Crooked Tree, and Robert McCammon, author of They Thirst and other fabulous books. The moment Victoria read their novels, she knew writing fantastic horror & thrillers would be in her future.The explosive and twisting conclusion of Agony of Being Me, a 110K word novel, Finding You, is scheduled to release on June 30th on Amazon in paperback and Kindle. Prime members read free.Victoria founded Water Forest Press indie book publishing in 2004, but her background in publishing stretches back to 2001 when she founded, edited, designed and published Skyline Literary Magazines, Literary House Review and Hudson View Poetry digest. These books and magazines were requisitioned by the New York Public Library and colleges such as Brown University Library, Wisconsin Madison Library, Johh A. Logan, and others, including international locations.Connect with Victoriafacebook.com/AuthorVictoriaJanuaryValentine/twitter.com/VictoriaSkylinelinkedin.com/in/victoria-valentine-81212041januaryvalentine.blogspot.com/victoriaskyline.blogspot.com/

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ASIN ‏ : ‎ B01GGQ18KC
Publisher ‏ : ‎ Water Forest Press; Book One edition (May 31, 2016)
Publication date ‏ : ‎ May 31, 2016
Language ‏ : ‎ English
File size ‏ : ‎ 1647 KB
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Print length ‏ : ‎ 320 pages

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January Valentine is the pen name of Victoria Valentine, New York writer and indie book publisher. See Victoria's Author page: amazon.com/author/victoriavalentine
I chose to use a pen name because some of my writing is steamy, and I wanted to separate Victoria, who writes contemporary fiction and children's storybooks. Since my birth month is January, January Valentine seemed an appropriate pseudonym.
I also host a blogtalkradio show: Away With Words, every Wednesday evening at 6 PM EST where I interview other writers and poets and discuss writing in general: http://www.blogtalkradio.com/aww1
In June, I released my first paranormal romance, Beautiful Experiment, book one of Island of Defiance Trilogy. Wheel Wolf was released on August 20th, and instantly became an Amazon bestseller in Horror/Suspense/Paranormal.
I've written three other novels: Love Dreams contemporary romance, Sweet Dreams in the Mind of a Serial Killer, and Head Over Wheels New Adult romance. All are available on Amazon and other booksellers, or will be shortly in ebook and paperback.
I publish books for other authors through Water Forest Press, which I founded some years ago. In the past I have written poetry and song lyrics, but now I focus on fiction. I've created multiple websites and blogs that I don't have time to manage very well.
My desire to be in a rock band brought me into a recording studio ... where my lyrics sprang to life with the help of a local alternative rock band. Together, we produced a CD.
I enjoy designing book covers and youtube videos. I enjoy hiking and swimming. I love all kinds of music. Watching horror flicks and Tyler Perry movies are my escape from reality.
I have an addiction to engraved pens that I buy to accompany each of my books. My office is filled with paperbacks and swag.
My sites and pages.
http:// januaryvalentine.blogspot.com
http:// www.januaryvalentine.com
https:// www.facebook.com/ AuthorVictoriaJanuaryValentine
https:// twitter.com/ VictoriaSkyline
http:// pinterest.com/ janvicval/
http://www.blogtalkradio.com/aww1
A bit about my books:
Wheel Wolf: Beneath a full, blood moon, on the way home from his girlfriend's house, Jack Bailey encounters something terrifying at Phantom Lake. Fleeing the unknown, he dumps his bike and is found unconscious, his body tangled with a naked girl. Jack struggles to regain memory and the use of his legs, while fighting a sudden urge for raw meat and to bay at the moon. Wheel Wolf is a story of unconditional love that lives beyond the grave, and a relentless fight for retribution. An Amazon bestseller in Werewolves/Shifters/Horror/Suspense.
Beautiful Experiment: Six unruly teens are abducted on their way to a juvie home. Dumped onto an uncharted island. Could things get any worse? Hell, yeah. Hostility and envy run rampant. Throw in some alphas, divas and demons, and what do you have? Beautiful Experiment. Book One of the Island of Defiance Trilogy.
Love Dreams: She's a beautiful wreck who wants nothing to do with me. Beaten and left for dead, she suffers from night terrors. When she keeps running into a gorgeous guy things heat up, but memories of abuse dampen the fire.
He's handsome. He's wealthy. He's in a wheelchair. His entire life has changed, and the past months have been hell. But there's a bright spot in Michael's life: a girl named Sienna.
Sweet Dreams: A serial killer is on the loose, moving up the East Coast, leaving bodies & notes. Planting roses in his victims. Leonardo Gibraldi, Baltimore's sexy Assistant DA, is tracking the fiend who's responsible for the grisly murder of his ex-girlfriend. Leo's out for revenge -- so is the killer. Between hunting the madman, and fighting off beautiful women, Leo's got his hands full. There's one break in the case: An eye witness who says, "It doesn't look human."
Head Over Wheels: Life is smooth sailing for Jewelia Delarosa, NYPD's next super cop, or so she hopes. The twenty-one year old headstrong Latina from middle class Poughkeepsie has a lot to learn, and like it or not, James Ballou aka Indigo, is her designated teacher. The problem is, the wealthy and elusive med student has some baggage that's preventing him from giving his heart to the woman who already has his mind. It's one step forward, two steps back for the struggling Manhattan couple in this steamy New Adult romance. A 400 page breezy, sometimes humorous drama that includes a bit of mystery.
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Victoria Valentine is a New York writer and Indie Book Publisher. She founded Skyline Publications in 2000 and Water Forest Press Books in 2006. Victoria writes spicy romance, horror and thrillers as January Valentine
Victoria also dabbles in poetry, and has published a book of romantic poetry entitled, Desert Noon, lost poetry by Victoria Valentine.
Victoria published her first children's color storybook in 2007, and is working on the second in a series of three books featuring a duck, a monkey, and a bear who meet, form a bond, adventure and discover new friends, eventually saving their forest home from land developers who are destroying their habitat. In this trilogy, there are lessons to be learned, as well as big words for young readers.
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Jude Uhl

FIVE STARS!!!

Reviewed in the United States on June 11, 2016

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A friend recommended this book. It's an incredible young and new adult tense, traumatic drama with the promise of sweet romance. Beautifully written. It's an emotional page-turner, with characters that pop in and out of your heart. I instantly bonded with Zoe and Jesse and found the minor characters interesting and well developed as well. Reading the alternating points of view was interesting, showing how each felt about the other in their own words. I sailed through the book in two days because I just couldn't stop reading. Every chapter is involving and a surprise. I can't wait for the conclusion in book two. I'm dying to find out if these two kids get together and if it's possible for Zoe to heal and Jesse to sort out his life.

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Matthew Panagis

THE AGONY OF WAITING FOR BOOK 2......

Reviewed in the United States on June 4, 2016

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I read Agony of Being me in two sittings. Although it's an intense story dealing with a delicate subject, it's done well and is an easy read. Zoe and Jesse like each other but seniors don't date freshmen. It's kind of a hit and miss romance until Zoe disappears. The tension between these characters makes me want to find out if they get together and how it might happen. Nina and Nino are the crazy cousins and very funny. All of the characters are good and feel real. I feel bad for what Zoe goes through and the way she acts makes sense considering the circumstances. This book is kind of a cliffhanger but it's really about someone's life and you have to wait to find out what tomorrow will bring.

Reviewed in the United States on June 18, 2016

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This is an intense story about two high school kids who are about to fall in love, and then tragedy strikes. I felt like I was experiencing what Zoe went through and my heart went out to her. She disappears from Jesse's life and he tries to pick up the pieces of his own shattered life. They're both forced to walk a path they never planned on. They're slammed with one thing after another. The characters are well developed, some serious, some fun. This book is gripping and filled with emotion. I look forward to the next book to see where their paths ultimately lead.

Reviewed in the United States on August 2, 2016

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This author has captured the essence of youth in this story. Jesse and Zoe are characters you relate to and love. Reading brought me back to how it felt to experience first time love,joy,pain,tragedy and loss. Very talented author,wonderful story. Can't wait to start sequel!!

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Reviewed in the United States on April 11, 2017

A gritty and hard-hitting exploration in young adult voice and characterisation. Not for the faint hearted, strong issues are dealt with and experienced from the teenager’s points of view, and the narrative voice is excellent.

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Reviewed in the United States on July 10, 2016

**Trigger Warning** There is a scene of sexual abuse.
Zoe Channing lives the perfect life. She has parents who love nothing more than her, she's incredibly smart, talented, and although she's only a freshman in high school, she has captured the eye of her crush, senior Jesse Sinclair. What more could she ever dream of? How about her world not crash down around her.

Jesse Sinclair is sought out by every girl, no matter the age. Jesse is the whole package; sweet, charming, loyal, hard-working, responsible (so much more so than his older brother James), and sex on a stick HOT! Every girl wants a piece of Jesse, but once his eyes land on Zoe, no one else matters. Can Jesse and Zoe have their moment, or will they learn the true meaning of Agony?

Within minutes of starting this book, I was caught up in Zoe and Jesse's story. I was so caught up in their story that I couldn't put it down. I as distracted from everything. I ranted, I cried, I laughed, I cried, and then I came to the end of the book. I was so thankful that the second book in the story "Finding You" was out so that I could start right away.

This is the second book from Mrs. Valentine that I have read. She has an amazing gift of storytelling, and innate ability to make the reader feel as though they are right there - in the middle of the story. I can't wait to see what she has planned for Zoe and Jesse.

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J. Lapin Zell

A Powerful and Consuming Story.

Reviewed in the United States on July 5, 2016

This is not your average teenage angst story. In this captivating novel, Victoria Valentine takes teenage angst to new heights. She removes the stigma of teenage angst as being trivial and unimportant and takes it to a level on which everyone can relate. Zoe and Jesse have to navigate through their separate demons and very real, tragic situations to find their way into each other’s lives. The result is an evocative and engrossing novel.

This book is daring. An author does not write better than when he or she takes risks, deviates from his or her comfort zone and branches out into new territory, and comes up with a stunning, absorbing and memorable story. Victoria Valentine is at her best here, deftly building suspense and tension, and leaving the reading wanting more.

The use of alternating points of view is very effective and helps to round the characters, both main ones and secondary ones, and make them sympathetic, memorable and come to life in the mind of the reader.

I read this book of 300+ pages in just two days. If you want an engrossing, gripping and addictive read, you won’t be disappointed. This is your book.

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Tammy Payne

A very deep story !!

Reviewed in the United States on June 15, 2016

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Zoe is young and still in high school. She is very talented and beautiful in her own way. She meets Jesse who is the high school heartthrob.
Jesse and his brother are battling demons of their own in this story and now Zoe has her demons after a horrible tragedy finds its way into her life.

Although young, these two people have to grow up quickly to deal with the issues that have found there way into their lives.
Zoe is younger and that makes things a little difficult for these two a tragedy separates them but it does not separate their hearts. I am hoping they can find their way to each other.

The author gives us a very deep story line and the characters are good.
The book gives us a cliffhanger and now I anxiously await book two.

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A Must Read!!

Reviewed in the United Kingdom on June 24, 2016

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Oh, my god, I broke my heart with this read. I love January (Victoria) Valentine's work, I'm a massive fan and this didn't let me down at all. A little different from what January (Victoria) normally writes but I love this new bold comeback. Looking forward to continuing the read with Finding you.

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